Freak accidents.

Yesterday, I cut my finger while washing a new cheese grater. It started bleeding and it took a while for the cut to clot. [Don't worry, it's much better now. It will take a few days to heal completely]

Now, my mind was quick to ignore this. It wanted to go about things like usual. Do the things that were on the agenda. But the body was showing signs in the only way it can. By signalling weakness and pain, but still allowing me to push through.

It was only late in the day when I felt completely drained that I realised that I am out of integrity.

Not because I did something bad or unethical. But because the middle finger of my right hand was not functional. I was like a MacBook with a broken keyboard. Everything else worked fine, but a key (pun intended) part was missing.

The realisation that something was off and it needed time to fix wasn't easy. That's not what the culture teaches us to do. But the body knows and tells.

It's easier to see what getting back to integrity would feel like here. Most likely, the finger would heal and things would get back to normal in a few days. Only if I allow it to rest though.

But what do we do when the freak accidents are not physical but emotional. When we get hurt by something someone said or did. Do we make space for the hurt part? If we don't, we can be out of integrity for a long time.